Pretty much cried the entire time, but mixed in with those tears was laughter and love shared by my close friends and Sams family. It was hard to see mom and dad, I cant imagine the pain that their hearts are going through. A father should never have to speak at his daughters funeral...please keep them in your prayers...
In this time of mourning, we all remembered the good days. We shared our favorite memories, silly stories and we were just there for each other.
Taylor: i love you so much, we have so many good memories with Sammy (the red horned man! hes real!!) im so thankful to have you in my life, couldnt get through this without you!!
Kelly: babe, ive missed you. weve had our moments, but girl i love you. Im so glad how close we have come amongst all the heart ache. I am always here for you no matter what. (That goes for you too taylor!!)
Jess: same goes for you woman!!! I love you so much! im so glad we have each other to get through this. weve just gotta remember the good times! cause we got a butt load of them to choose from!!
and just to let you three amazing women know, you are STUCK with me! there is no way that youre gettin rid of me. Friends always and forever!
Sam, you may be gone but you are definitely not forgotten. "Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only a true friend will leave footprints on your heart."-Eleanore Roosevelt. You have definitely left many footprints on my heart. You were and always will be my best friend, my sister, my partner in crime...love you woman.
I miss you. i miss your laugh, i miss your smile, i miss all the good times. but, you are in a better place. I may never know why God decided it was your time to go, but i cant wait to see you again! Im so glad you are no longer in pain, and you can finally find peace. I still have all the letters we wrote back and forth to each other. I am NEVER getting rid of them.
Today was definitely rough, i am still shocked and have yet to really take it all in. Im still waiting to get a phone call from you saying that everything is ok, and this was just a misunderstanding. unfortunately thats not the case. Its going to take time to heal, but the process has definitely started. As much as today hurt, its just what i needed. The peacefulness on your face brought a smile to mine.
If you didnt know, Sam loved animals. She had tons and tons of stuffed animals that each had their own name and story behind them. We spent many hours playing veterinarian with her animals. Her amazing parents brought them to the funeral today and let us each pick one to take home.
Well i chose the cute lil black bear you named Blacky(: Sam, me and you loved this bear! I still remember, we were visiting your mom at work and we saw the bear there and fell in love. So she got us each one. We sure loved those bears..
Id be lying if i said i was doing ok, im definitely not. Im still hurting, but thats just going to take time. Its hard to sleep at night (hence the blog posts at like 1am) im still angry with God for taking my best friend from me, but eventually things will get easier, until then, please just pray for me and my heart as well as Sams family.
Thank you.
-em
LOVE YOU SAM! ALWAYS AND FOREVER!
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