So yesterday was Easter Sunday. I had a wonderful day spent with my amazing family. Ate some delicious food, played volleyball, football, Minute To Win It games, relaxed, talked, laughed, just had a good time. That was definitely what i needed, just some good ol' fashioned family time.
Its been almost 3 weeks now since i lost my best friend Sam to cancer; the days are becoming much easier for me to get through. They keep me distracted from the thought that Sams not here anymore, that i wont be seeing her for a while, and ive noticed that something always happens during the day will remind me of her and bring a smile to my face. Whether its recalling a funny memory, hearing one of her favorite songs on the radio or visiting the horses at WHRR. Every day i think of you Sam. You will never be forgotten! As easy as the days are getting for me, the nights not so much. Im sleeping finally but it takes forever for my mind to quiet itself and let me sleep. every now and then ill have a bad night where sleep just isnt happening for me, but those are not as often anymore. The nightmares are slowly going away thanks to late night phone calls and Sams old teddy bear, Blackie.
No one ever tells you that life will be easy, and they definitely dont tell you that life will be this hard sometimes.
I texted Sam yesterday to tell her happy Easter. I dont know why i did it, just felt like i needed to. I knew i wouldnt get a response, but deep down there was a small piece of me that hoped for one.
I still cant get over the fact that youre gone Sam. I know its been almost 3 weeks, but it just shouldnt have happened. For those of you who didnt know Sam, she was freakin awesome. She was definitely the nicest person i knew. She had the sweetest and most caring heart ever. She loved everyone; family, friends, dogs, horses, animals! Even if she didnt know you that well, she loved you. Not one selfish bone in her body. Whenever we hung out, we always had a blast. She was one crazy chick! Then you put the two of us together and oh man! Her parents definitely had a handful to deal with when we were together!!(: All the sleepovers and crazy vacations, we had a blast. Im so thankful for all the time i was able to spend with you Sam. It was definitely cut way too short but we sure did live it up to the fullest! Cant wait to see your smiling face again.
Love you girl with all of my heart forever and ever!
peaces!
-em
Im glad you posted this.
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