Got to start my day off right today! took the 5am horse feed shift at Wild Horse Rescue Ranch. spent like 2 hours out there, even though we were done at like 6ish. 14 horses fed, watered, fly-masked and rotated in record time.
While out with the horses, i couldnt help but smile. Smile because i was doing something that i loved, smile because its so easy for me to get up before the sun to be with horses yet i cant get my lazy butt up for school, smile because i know Sam is right there with me enjoying the horses company, smile because thats just one of the many things me and Sam shared (a love for horses). That was the ranch that i had one of my birthdays at, Sam had her heart set on adopting a cute lil buckskin mare named Pistol. good start to my day for sure. No heart ache, just happy memories and horses.....
So yesterday while talking to a friend, i was asked why anyone would want to lead a life pleasing to God. To be honest, i dont think i have ever been asked that question before or have actually taken time to think about it. The question stumped me. All i could say was that, that was how i was raised my whole life and that God sent his only son to die on the cross for my sins so that I could be in heaven and that the least i could do was live a life pleasing to Him for the grace he has shown me. Typical churchy answer. I felt terrible for not being about to come up with anything else. Ive been a Christian my whole life, gone on mission trips, given my testimony, been baptized and yet one question totally caught me off guard. It made me realize that maybe im not as close with God as i thought i was. Have i just been putting on a front for everyone else? I want to think i havent but maybe i have? well, its time to change that and break away from all that lukewarm crap. I dont just want to go through the motions, i dont want to just run to God when i need Him or when its good for me. SO by admitting this, im taking my first step in breaking them stupid chains that are keeping me from the relationship that i deserve, scratch that, the relationship that i WANT to have with God...
Thats all i feel like talking about for today. Not much else to say. Lifes crazy, totally sucks sometimes but hey, no one ever said it would be easy.
"You gotta take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you got and remember what you had. Learn to forgive but never forget, learn from your mistakes but never regret. People change, things go wrong, just remember life goes on!" I dont know who said this but i like it. Figured i would share it!
well time to do some more homework!
Peaces!
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Love you Samantha Rae! With all my heart! I know youre having a blast right now chillin with Jesus! and with that thought, i smile(: love you woman!
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